Little Nuggets

It has been a week and a half since our pregnancy was considered officially over. In that time, my thoughts have been all over the board. I have been struggling with so many questions ..... why this and why that.....It seems that these days the littlest dose of disappointment can bring me to tears, and many times it does not even take disappointment.

Exhibit A: I dropped some frozen sausage on my foot and totally lost it. Tears and all...cried like a baby. The dog stared at me in disbelief like I was a crazy person. Nobody was home so I was not looking for sympathy....I just plain old needed a good cry. Sure....it hurt a little....but more so I just felt sorry for myself. Sorry that Pat and I did not get to be pregnant anymore, sorry that we have to wait longer than most to experience the joys of parenthood and sorry that the sausage had to fall on MY foot and not somebody else's. Poor me....stupid sausage!

It has been a season of sadness for us, but in my opinion I have been blessed by a life where the good times have far outweighed the hard times. There are people out there that have it so much harder than me. I know life on Earth is not always cherries and blueberries and that after this life there is something so much better and eternal. So for now, I am relying on some of the little nuggets of encouragement that I have found. There are many families out there that have experienced loss and as I have been reading many of their stories, I have found a lot of comfort.

Little Snowdrop

The world may never notice

If a Snowdrop doesn't bloom,

Or even pause to wonder

If the petals fall too soon.

But every life that ever forms,

Or ever comes to be,

Touches the world in some small way

For all eternity.

The little one we long for

Was swiftly here and gone.

But the love that was then planted

Is a light that still shines on.

And though our arms are empty,

Our hearts know what to do.

Every beating of our hearts

Says that we love you.

­- Author Unknown